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We're best described as an OSDD-1(b) system. We’re working towards functional multiplicity, and we’re getting there. It took a lot of work to get to this point, but we’ve still got a long way to go.
We’re ployfragmented, and there are over 2500 members here, though a lot of those are subsystems and NPCs. Almost everyone here formed outside of the core as Boltzmann brains on their own, but a handful formed primarily in conjunction with a few of the break-offs from the core.
There are only six that use the body regularly, though: two core breakoffs and four other people. On this site, we’ll be focusing mostly on them.
What actually started our plurality wasn't trauma, exactly. It was moving back and forth between Germany (our motherland) and the US a few times before we were eight. The first time we moved, we left our home country at age 2½ when our sense of self was coming online. (This also started our BPD.) Or maybe that counts as trauma, we don't know. Of course, the abuse that was heaped on us later made everything worse, but that's not what started it.
The core was never able to to form an identity, heavily due to trauma that we kept acquiring in every category that a person can be traumatised in. Our parents and some of our friends were helicopter people especially our mom and our self-appointed bestie (not our real bestie we watched anime with, mind you), we grew up in a Protestant doomsday cult, all types of trauma coming from outside our home, some coming from within it, we were almost constantly surrounded by mentally ill people who refused to acknowledge that they were ill, and on top of that, a medical misdiagnosis of bipolar II (usually “misspelled” as bipolar I by subsequent doctors) that went a long way in ruining our lives as well.
Because of the core’s inability to know who she was, she was a median subsystem and functioned as the shell. She’d take on new identities at big life events or major moves; usually things to cause her life to fall apart and require a restart. In 2014, Cattarina formed as the Core’s identity and decided to end the cycle. Eventually, Cattarina broke off. The core went further back into the headspace, but Cattarina stayed in the front. Later Violette broke off and separated from her. They function as “normal” system members now, though they’re still connected in the way incidental twins are connected. And that brings us to the present.
All six of us remember the body’s trauma differently. We all have our own tragic origin stories in the head. We might write about them one day.
A long time ago we started drawing, painting and writing as a means to cope with the shit happening to us and going on around us. And, because the world's coming to an end (seriously: 45-47 is the Antichrist from the Bible), and since we started painting again, we decided to reboot our website and start connecting with people. And here we are. :3
And no, we can't pretend to be a singlet and "normal" (whatever the fuck normal is). Any time we tried to get anything started while hiding our mental illnesses and non-mental illnesses, it caused a breakdown and we had to stop everything, spend about a year and a half recovering, then start over again. And to reiterate, the world's coming to an end and we're all about to die. We might as well be ourselves for once, and we've officially lost patience with normies anyway.
And yes, we're goth. Because it makes us happy. (Duh.) ^ω^
--Cattarina